The Sad Fat Child

The first thing I remember was when people were saying, hey boy you’re fat. I was only five confused, not knowing what to think of that. Didn’t want to be alive, and felt like crap.

All I knew back then, that I wasn’t accepted. People didn’t see me for who I was, and yet I was totally rejected.

Every child should feel special and fine, and not have to listen to anyone else’s lines. Each kid needs to like who they are, and believe in themselves as a Super Star. That’s called being a Kid, loving life, wanting to live and take part in what the world has to give!

Then I started school. Just to be accepted I became the class clown, or fool. As I hid myself behind this round façade, I felt as if I were going to drown. While everyday praying for help from God with out a sound, my screams were silent, never heard, not even a single word. I thought to myself how odd, and how absurd.

The only time people wanted to be with me, is when they wanted to see and be entertained by the fat boy freak show. They don’t know how bad it hurts, and sure as hell won’t know all the pain. How the prejudices made you feel like dirt for absolutely nothing to gain, except for just being cruel, thus leaving you totally insane with not a person to call, and everybody’s fool.

When it came time to date, that’s when you really started to hate your life. You knew that no girl would ever want you as a as their mate, or to become your wife. If only they ever took the time to understand, on who you are and what I am. I’m just a lonely kind and loving man, with a heart to give and a caring hand.

Please except me for who I am, a man that is filled with the abundance of love and kindness, passion and soul, with a gift from above that continuously overflows. Please hold my hand, then throw away all your prejudice, and only then you will find out who I am in all of this. I ask you to take me away from this hell! I’m just a man, looking for love in a big round shell.

It's Christmas Love

It’s Christmas, The best time of the year, people seem to change for the good, with a little more love and a lot more cheer.
Our dreams come alive again, and hope rises to the top. Families smile and grin and some how we find the means to shop, even though we only have a little to give, we love a lot.
Feel the spirit, breathe it in deep, and then try to share it. For those Christmas memories are ours to keep filled with love, kindness, and Christmas Merit.
Dreams really do come true, that feeling of love that can only come from above, sent by God to you. No matter what it seems, at Christmas we live those dreams of love through and through.
You walk into the room where the tree is all lit. The presents will be open soon, as you find that special place to sit. The anticipation is in the air of all the gifts that will be opened, unwrapped and shared.
Feel the spirit, breathe it in deep, and then try to share it. For those Christmas memories are ours to keep filled with love, kindness, and Christmas Merit.
For me, I try to grasp the memories of Christmas past, of Mom and Dad, my two sisters and all the love they gave to me will always last.
A little eggnog, and Silent Night playing on the stereo, you try to stay awake, and yet you nod off, and away you go, dreaming of all the fun your children had, and all the love they have for you as Mom, and Dad.
Feel the spirit, breathe it in deep, and then try to share it. For those Christmas memories are ours to keep filled with love, kindness, and Christmas Merit.

What Is Love?

What Is Love?
What's love?
Everybody strives to have it, and makes it their number one priority in life. Is it a feeling of want or to be wanted, a feeling of need, the fear of loneliness, a feeling of hope, is it faith, or just the basic instinct to procreate your genetics with the best possible mate you can achieve for immortality?
I prefer to think of love, as a miracle. A gift from God that gets us closest to him by teaching us the nuances of kindness, compassion, and an overall appreciation of life! Love is definitely faith based, because if you take faith away it's impossible to love.
That's why I believe that God in the Bible is showing us what love is. Why the Bible stresses us all to have faith, and a belief for Jesus Christ, and God himself. The amazing thing is if you do believe that Jesus Christ is our savior, you will receive an over abundance of unconditional love.